yeap. After fighting for the love, i guess its going no where when you are fighting alone.

According to D, I mean D told A that D and J no longer in any hanky panky relationship or whatever you want to call it..

The thing A have tried so hard to believe in D and A keep having nightmares every night, seeing D with J or some random girls.

What should A do?

Yeah, it hurts...



But I think I am over it.

Pretty much. Though I still hope everything will revert back to the way it was before.

I have deactivated my Facebook account. So, you cant find me there. Need my contact? Give me a PM, I will give you my number.

You are a fucking liar, you bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For those who do not notice or know, I moved back to Petaling Jaya area after staying in Ampang for 10 months. Nearer to college and workplace = save more money!!

Q: Will you still play when (note: this is supposed to be IF) I come back?

A: Maybe. I dont know. Maybe when you come back, I am bored of playing around.


Pauses.....

A: Life is short, why do I have to do this? Why do I have to stay with you and only you when I can go around and experience everything.

So,it's like this...

A is with D.

J is with some random people that we shall call T (yes, they are together).


A is hanging out with friend that we shall call W in a place we shall refer as MV.


So, D is with J, emotionally attached perhaps, or maybe just material based r/s. D and J was walking and met A with W. A is fully aware that D is with J. So, A is cast a smile and continue talking to W.

So, J asked D, "Why is A with another butch who-is-actually-W? why A saw you but no reaction?"

So my question is, who is J to ask this kind of question when she is supposed to be with T, the designated partner, she hang with D, the one who is attached to A.

So, J, this is my two cents.

I mean do you get what I mean, it is as if you are trying to say that A is cheating when all this while, you are cheating on your T? You don't have any rights at all to even comment on that. If you are the holy saint and goody goody type that doesn't cheat. Run back to your T and get on with life.

Then, what do you expect A to do?? Attack you in public so that you can have a point of saying that A actually attacked you in public and D should leave A for embarrassing J in public? Don you think that what A did is very mature? Ah well, I guess, J is too childish in that matter.

I just dont get what J is trying to do, hey, bored of relationship, dont be in one. It takes commitment, trust, lots of sharing, love. Okay, the key point here is commitment. It takes effort to be in commitment, really, it does. If you are acting like this, you will suffer the whole time. What will all the curses that you are going to have.

J, get over it.

Aierra is in an open relationship with ChobEwriey HeArt.




Can I like this?


haha

Aierra is in an open relationship with ChobEwriey HeArt.




Can I like this?


haha

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Yang indah hanya sementara
Yang abadi adalah kenangan
Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati
Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari



Tidak mudah mencari yang hilang
Tidak mudah mengejar impian



Namun yg lebih susah mempertahankan yg ada
Karena walaupun tergenggam bisa terlepas juga
Ingatlah pada pepatah, "Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"



Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif
Hidup bagaikan mimpi, seindah apapun,
begitu bangun semuanya sirna tak berbekas
Rumah mewah bagai istana, harta benda yang tak terhitung, kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa, namun..



Ketika nafas terakhir tiba, sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi
Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki
Apalagi yang mau diperebutkan
Apalagi yang mau disombongkan



Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani
Jangan terlalu perhitungan
Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri
Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita
Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih
Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah
Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa



Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan
Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan
Tak ada dendam yang tak bisa terhapus.



Original author; unknown

My first kiss went a lil like this....



*mwah*


haha... I think i should embed this video on this post too...



I am so random.. I know right? I think I am over it when I think I can't live with that decision that I think I will thought of..

hmmmm

How would I know the truth if you have been lying to me all this while?

hai fierce mhai fongue...



laugh all you want now~~~~

Plasterred smile
covers the fragile heart

all these while
we never did our part

to love
to cherish
to treasure

let me go if I am your burden
dont ever turn

Let me go if you fell out of love
i will fly like a dove

Let me

Just let me....

Years back, when we first met. We were so in love. After awhile, you realised that you are starting to fall out of love, but falling for someone else.

How do I know that all this while you are in love with me? Are those just sweet words that you utter to every single lady that you have ever met?

People around me say, I am the only stupid girl who can tolerate your attitude and behaviour. I guess I am idiotic enough to be played till the level where I am just being left to crash and burn after flying so highly in love with you.

You say, I am the only girl in your life that understands you the most. I guess all the understanding fade away too.

I've changed. Thats what you say. Let me see, I took care of you when you were sick. You called me at night saying that you have fever and cant eat anything but porridge, I left campus at night, with almost empty pockets. Rushed to your place to cater for your need. Well, those are just the memories that we cant dwell much, it will hurt more.

Maybe I am just another plot in your life. Another trophy to parade around. And now you have a new trophy, may that trophy serve you well.

Every single thing in our life, happens for a reason. Every single step that we take, are predetermined by power that is too complicated for us to comprehend. And the best part, what goes around, comes around.

The power of love

People says; "love is powerful, it will change you." How true is this? To me, its really true. People change to be better and all. But once the green monster takes over, one can really change to be better or worse.

So, what if you changed, negative?

Someone told me that I had changed to be the worst lover ever. I admit, I never really realised all the changes that took place. Maybe I was in my comfort zone, thinking that the way I love them is the true way of showing my love to them. I am a person who cant really show my love for them. Maybe I did it the wrong way. Confront me and tell me what you want, I will be your mirror and reflect everything that you want, just because I love you.

What if you've changed and they still dont cherish you?

Take the chance I guess. If I am changed to a better person, if that someone cant really cherish me, thinking that I cant give them everything that they want, maybe it was just meant to be that way. A friend of mine says, there are reasons that people from the past cant make it into your future. So, I guess its true. Everything happens for a reason, whatever reason that may be. If this happens to me to give me a wake up call. I guess I am awake, though half awake, still blinded by the love that I have for this person. Honestly, I dont have the strength to walk away, the strength to forget everything the strength to stay away.

But they have treated you so badly, isnt that a true wake up call?

It is a wake up call, but there is a malay saying, "bertepuk sebelah tangan tidak akan berbunyi." There are nothing that happened onesided. When we are pointing one finger toward others, remember that there are 3 fingers pointing back at you. Whatever that seems like fault of others, may caused by ourselves. I guess when shits happened, we humans would rather find something to point its at fault. Human nature I suppose.

What are you going to do if it doesnt work out?

I dont know. I really dont. Like I said, I dont have the strength to walk away, I dont have the strength to stay either. Commitment is a big responsibility for people with connection, especially when it felt like a burden for others. Relationship needs time, needs love, needs sacrifice.

So What if they dont want to sacrifice anymore?

This is a major problem. If changes is needed in a relationship, then changes will it be. If more sacrifice are needed to be done, sacrifice will it be. If changes wasnt cherished, i guess thats one of sacrifice that have already been made. Appreciation...

If you walk away, will you change to the worst?

Maybe not, maybe those changes will be the memoir for the relationship that we had, the time that we spent ( or wasted if that is how they look at it), memories we had together, all the ups and downs.

So, to change or not to change?

If changes is what I need to sacrifice to get you back. I will.


This is my two cents, maybe you need outsider view on this.