Which one is worst? Having a scandal or having an imaginary girlfriend?

yeap. After fighting for the love, i guess its going no where when you are fighting alone.

You are a fucking liar, you bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Yang indah hanya sementara
Yang abadi adalah kenangan
Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati
Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari



Tidak mudah mencari yang hilang
Tidak mudah mengejar impian



Namun yg lebih susah mempertahankan yg ada
Karena walaupun tergenggam bisa terlepas juga
Ingatlah pada pepatah, "Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"



Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif
Hidup bagaikan mimpi, seindah apapun,
begitu bangun semuanya sirna tak berbekas
Rumah mewah bagai istana, harta benda yang tak terhitung, kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa, namun..



Ketika nafas terakhir tiba, sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi
Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki
Apalagi yang mau diperebutkan
Apalagi yang mau disombongkan



Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani
Jangan terlalu perhitungan
Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri
Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita
Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih
Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah
Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa



Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan
Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan
Tak ada dendam yang tak bisa terhapus.



Original author; unknown

How would I know the truth if you have been lying to me all this while?

Plasterred smile
covers the fragile heart

all these while
we never did our part

to love
to cherish
to treasure

let me go if I am your burden
dont ever turn

Let me go if you fell out of love
i will fly like a dove

Let me

Just let me....

Years back, when we first met. We were so in love. After awhile, you realised that you are starting to fall out of love, but falling for someone else.

How do I know that all this while you are in love with me? Are those just sweet words that you utter to every single lady that you have ever met?

People around me say, I am the only stupid girl who can tolerate your attitude and behaviour. I guess I am idiotic enough to be played till the level where I am just being left to crash and burn after flying so highly in love with you.

You say, I am the only girl in your life that understands you the most. I guess all the understanding fade away too.

I've changed. Thats what you say. Let me see, I took care of you when you were sick. You called me at night saying that you have fever and cant eat anything but porridge, I left campus at night, with almost empty pockets. Rushed to your place to cater for your need. Well, those are just the memories that we cant dwell much, it will hurt more.

Maybe I am just another plot in your life. Another trophy to parade around. And now you have a new trophy, may that trophy serve you well.

Every single thing in our life, happens for a reason. Every single step that we take, are predetermined by power that is too complicated for us to comprehend. And the best part, what goes around, comes around.

The power of love

People says; "love is powerful, it will change you." How true is this? To me, its really true. People change to be better and all. But once the green monster takes over, one can really change to be better or worse.

So, what if you changed, negative?

Someone told me that I had changed to be the worst lover ever. I admit, I never really realised all the changes that took place. Maybe I was in my comfort zone, thinking that the way I love them is the true way of showing my love to them. I am a person who cant really show my love for them. Maybe I did it the wrong way. Confront me and tell me what you want, I will be your mirror and reflect everything that you want, just because I love you.

What if you've changed and they still dont cherish you?

Take the chance I guess. If I am changed to a better person, if that someone cant really cherish me, thinking that I cant give them everything that they want, maybe it was just meant to be that way. A friend of mine says, there are reasons that people from the past cant make it into your future. So, I guess its true. Everything happens for a reason, whatever reason that may be. If this happens to me to give me a wake up call. I guess I am awake, though half awake, still blinded by the love that I have for this person. Honestly, I dont have the strength to walk away, the strength to forget everything the strength to stay away.

But they have treated you so badly, isnt that a true wake up call?

It is a wake up call, but there is a malay saying, "bertepuk sebelah tangan tidak akan berbunyi." There are nothing that happened onesided. When we are pointing one finger toward others, remember that there are 3 fingers pointing back at you. Whatever that seems like fault of others, may caused by ourselves. I guess when shits happened, we humans would rather find something to point its at fault. Human nature I suppose.

What are you going to do if it doesnt work out?

I dont know. I really dont. Like I said, I dont have the strength to walk away, I dont have the strength to stay either. Commitment is a big responsibility for people with connection, especially when it felt like a burden for others. Relationship needs time, needs love, needs sacrifice.

So What if they dont want to sacrifice anymore?

This is a major problem. If changes is needed in a relationship, then changes will it be. If more sacrifice are needed to be done, sacrifice will it be. If changes wasnt cherished, i guess thats one of sacrifice that have already been made. Appreciation...

If you walk away, will you change to the worst?

Maybe not, maybe those changes will be the memoir for the relationship that we had, the time that we spent ( or wasted if that is how they look at it), memories we had together, all the ups and downs.

So, to change or not to change?

If changes is what I need to sacrifice to get you back. I will.


This is my two cents, maybe you need outsider view on this.

Well... I guess stuff can cool off when you talk things through.


Ah well, lets just say the 7 day cool period is kinda over...



Result;


herm..... lets just see in another few days...

People all around me has always thought that we are the happy couple around. With less conflict than they can imagine. On the inside, like any other couple, problems arise and settled making the relationship as strong as ever.

Commitment is a very big responsibility. Commitment makes you share the joy and tears. Commitment needs sacrifice. Would you sacrifice your love for someone who can cherish it? You will not know whether you are being cherished until conflict arise.

Happy couples don't mean they're all set for marriage. Troubled ones don't mean it won't work out. Sometimes being together for too long may cause boredom. Sometimes doing too many things together all the time might lose the spark. Sometimes distance DON'T make the heart grows fonder. Sometimes differences DO matter. Sometimes it isn't because of trust, it is because the feelings are just gone. (from Hot Chocolate)

Maybe thats why everyone need a break. 7 days... I only have 7 days... I know what I want in my heart, but I may not succeed if its for my own desire.

Lets just wait and see what will happen.