Have you ever being called paranoid?
Yeah I do. Well, lets just say, I am paranoid bout people cheating behind my back and stuff. And my pet peeves is not knowing. I dont like not knowing. I dont like knowing stuff that I am supposed to be the one to know first from someone who hold no significant in that particular situation.
You know what? When I feel something is weird, my instinct kicks in so strong. But I am a pleaser. I will pretend to not know the truth until I cant even take it anymore where I will explode, burning everyone in tongues of angered-flame.
Why cant everyone just say out what they are doing? why do they have to hide in bushes of lies that is so transparent? dont they realise that this will only hurt more than console.
argh.. you hate questioning you say.. what if you found out that I lied? you bombard me with question. see.. what I am feeling maybe, just maybe is the same as the one you felt before!!!
I am so angry but I cant blurt out anything. I am tired of fighting. Just so tired. But then, if I ever hold this grudge in me any longer. I will get physical. I maybe small but when adrenaline rush, nothing can stop me!!!
Just tell me okay. Tell me why do you do it. You know the stories clash with each other. How can you be happy when your family is being bashed? How can you walk around being in denial?
Lets just ignore. Ignore everything. Pretend everything is fine. Kiss and make up.
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