Lysa!!!! I want to be able to comment on your blogpost. :'(
And I got nothing to post. oh wait... my camwhore pics. hahaha... Will camwhore with Cyl first, then I will post it up. :P
Ok, Lysa has been pestering me to update her bout my life here, back in Kuching. Ok baby, here goes..
I am glad that I am the only person in this world to call you Lysa, and being the only one. *beams proudly* *Grins* you know what, life has been good. I am now, venturing in a 'relationship'. Yeah. I know right?
School life; hmm... psychology is treating me good. I love every single bit bout it. At least I know that sexual orientation is gonna be discussed in topic 10. And I am doing my assignment on 'sexual disorientation'. Hey, be my subject, will you?
I do miss the life in KL, though hectic, the pay is good, even if you work part time. I guess all the clubs do miss me too. :)
Bout the epic movie, it is still on going. Pretty much like Harry Potter, its not going to end unless J.K. Rowling "kills" Harry. So, I am waiting for the producer to come down to Kuching and discuss the script with me on bed professionally. *winks*
Other than that, hmmmmm... Oh yeah. I am now being referred to as "minah rempit Sarawak yang tak ada standard". The one who set the standard, unfortunately, is abusing substance, alcohol and damn social. So I am pretty much confused about the standard. The way I make myself feel better bout it, "Orang HAWT memang banyak orang dengki. So I have to live with it. And only famous people gets death threat." and Lysa, little did I know that I am actually famous.
Har har... Isnt my life interesting? Oh.. even at my part time workplace now, there's some drama going on. Guess what? I am the main cast too. :P
p/s: Ask me anything. I will be happy to fill you in. I am not that good in story telling.. *lies*
I am in need of...
im tipsy, go fuck urself bitch. damn u for ruining my good night.
All hail to the best actress of the year!!!! Yours truly. Why you ask, oh well, I am starring in another drama that the director insist that its going to be an EPIC movie. Oooh.. did I mention the director is also the main cast in this epic movie?
Details soon... Stay tuned..
p/s : Psssst... Lysa, if your reading this... buzz me and I'll give you a free pass to this drama of my life..
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Keep holding on
Keep holding on
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
[Thanks to Derek (redshoeblacklacex2@hotmail.com) for these lyrics] via http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/avrillavigne/keepholdingon.html
I think im falling into that love hole again....
Oooo... you!!! please catch me so that i wont hurt myself from falling so deep in it..
When I was facing that hard time with break ups and coming back home and all that. I tend to channel all my energy elsewhere.
I am a person who is used to texting that someone, when I lost that someone, I turned to my friends so they will accompany me.. I have few shrinks when I was in that phase. Lysa helped me a lot. And Jojo too!! Not forgetting, Jaclyn Low, my baby.. Yeah these are all my girlfriends. Jac was the one who helped me to get up and start all over again. I know I know... You must be wondering who is Chowberiey Heart on my FB relationship status which was set to have a relationship with. She is one of my friend during college time. Crazy ones. She is the one who layan my crazy texts and coincidentally, she was having some rough time to forget her ex. So, we've created drama on fb. Calling each other baby or darling, you name it, we've used it. Reason = to show that we have 'moved on with life'.
So why is my FB relationship status is set with yet another friend. This friend of mine just broke up.. And like me, this friend need that safe and comfort zone. What goes around comes around.. Few months ago, this friend of mine gave that helping hand and gave an awakening bitch slap (literally). So, its my turn to help.
Dont judge something when you merely know bout the shit that people are facing.
Shit happens... All the time and there is a reason behind it.
:D
- i was bitten by a stupid bitch at my left ankle.. leaving a "small" hole there... its getting better.
oh well... you stand out of all the rest.. you know why? cos you survived the critical season! you survived... It's not over yet.. but u've made it my dear!
day seven: four turn offs.
1. Bulu... I geli with bulu bulu...
2. Penipuan. This is such a turn off. It is worst when the liar kantoi. Aka, liars. oh... make that a player that lies till the liar is confused with all the lies and cant even differentiate which is lie and which is not.
3. hmmmmmm..... waiting... i dont like waiting either. I really dont like waiting...
4. People who owe me money and doesnt pay me back. thats a big turn off.
day six: five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
1. My parents / family (you really cant leave em)
2. Mary (for being my shrink)
3. Jac (Baby, u gave me hope [in life]. I know right? But yeah.. u is my baby too.)
4. Kairy (Dude, those days... yeaps... i cant forget those days)
5. My friends in UM. They helped me a lot. I cant just name one cause there are a lot of them that really mean a lot to me.
This person meant a lot to me. (Note: Past tense)
- D Wong, TC, MA, Kenny Shan
day five: six things you wish you’d never done.
1. Quit UM.
2. Quit Starbucks.
3. FA
4. Smashed that phone, accidentally. after waking up. Seriously.. it was an accident.
5. Stop driving.
6. ................... I guess, bygone should be bygone..
Some day you'll cry for me like i cried for you,
you'll miss me like i missed you,
you'll need me like i needed you,
you'll love me but i wont love you
day four: seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Question or instruction of the day is.........
day two: nine things about yourself.
day one: ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
Got this from Lysa, she got it from her tumblr, whoever put it on tumblr, thanks!!
I woke up one day and realised that I can finally say I just woke up from the bad dream. Yes, I do still reminisce on the good days and all the memories of what we had been through. I dont regret all the good times. How I wish I can say that I dont regret the bad times but it is part of the good times too.
Dear Lysa,
Just when you think that life has been treating you bad, you are soaring up again........
Recently everyone around me broke up.. Okay, not everyone, but some. The thing is, the reason is almost the same.
Which one is worst? Having a scandal or having an imaginary girlfriend?
So now, Everyone can fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pointless to some, full of meaning for some!!
For those who understands me and really know me, they will know that i have a passion for self inflicted pain. lol. yes.. tattoo and body piercing is a kind of self inflicted pain...
I still have my friends whom I met during the course of being with you..
You cant have a clean break with her.
Thats why you left.
Dear Lysa,
yeap. After fighting for the love, i guess its going no where when you are fighting alone.
According to D, I mean D told A that D and J no longer in any hanky panky relationship or whatever you want to call it..
The thing A have tried so hard to believe in D and A keep having nightmares every night, seeing D with J or some random girls.
What should A do?
Yeah, it hurts...
But I think I am over it.
Pretty much. Though I still hope everything will revert back to the way it was before.
I have deactivated my Facebook account. So, you cant find me there. Need my contact? Give me a PM, I will give you my number.
You are a fucking liar, you bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For those who do not notice or know, I moved back to Petaling Jaya area after staying in Ampang for 10 months. Nearer to college and workplace = save more money!!
Q: Will you still play when (note: this is supposed to be IF) I come back?
A: Maybe. I dont know. Maybe when you come back, I am bored of playing around.
Pauses.....
A: Life is short, why do I have to do this? Why do I have to stay with you and only you when I can go around and experience everything.
So,it's like this...
A is with D.
J is with some random people that we shall call T (yes, they are together).
A is hanging out with friend that we shall call W in a place we shall refer as MV.
So, D is with J, emotionally attached perhaps, or maybe just material based r/s. D and J was walking and met A with W. A is fully aware that D is with J. So, A is cast a smile and continue talking to W.
So, J asked D, "Why is A with another butch who-is-actually-W? why A saw you but no reaction?"
So my question is, who is J to ask this kind of question when she is supposed to be with T, the designated partner, she hang with D, the one who is attached to A.
So, J, this is my two cents.
I mean do you get what I mean, it is as if you are trying to say that A is cheating when all this while, you are cheating on your T? You don't have any rights at all to even comment on that. If you are the holy saint and goody goody type that doesn't cheat. Run back to your T and get on with life.
Then, what do you expect A to do?? Attack you in public so that you can have a point of saying that A actually attacked you in public and D should leave A for embarrassing J in public? Don you think that what A did is very mature? Ah well, I guess, J is too childish in that matter.
I just dont get what J is trying to do, hey, bored of relationship, dont be in one. It takes commitment, trust, lots of sharing, love. Okay, the key point here is commitment. It takes effort to be in commitment, really, it does. If you are acting like this, you will suffer the whole time. What will all the curses that you are going to have.
J, get over it.
Aierra is in an open relationship with ChobEwriey HeArt.
Can I like this?
haha
Aierra is in an open relationship with ChobEwriey HeArt.
Can I like this?
haha
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ingatlah disaat dia jujur padamu
Maka kamu akan merasakan arti dia untukmu
Jangan sampai disaat dia sudah tidak disisimu,
Kamu baru menyadari semua arti dirinya untukmu
Yang indah hanya sementara
Yang abadi adalah kenangan
Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati
Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari
Tidak mudah mencari yang hilang
Tidak mudah mengejar impian
Namun yg lebih susah mempertahankan yg ada
Karena walaupun tergenggam bisa terlepas juga
Ingatlah pada pepatah, "Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"
Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif
Hidup bagaikan mimpi, seindah apapun,
begitu bangun semuanya sirna tak berbekas
Rumah mewah bagai istana, harta benda yang tak terhitung, kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa, namun..
Ketika nafas terakhir tiba, sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi
Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki
Apalagi yang mau diperebutkan
Apalagi yang mau disombongkan
Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani
Jangan terlalu perhitungan
Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri
Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita
Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih
Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah
Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa
Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan
Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan
Tak ada dendam yang tak bisa terhapus.
Original author; unknown
My first kiss went a lil like this....
*mwah*
haha... I think i should embed this video on this post too...
I am so random.. I know right? I think I am over it when I think I can't live with that decision that I think I will thought of..
hmmmm
How would I know the truth if you have been lying to me all this while?
hai fierce mhai fongue...
laugh all you want now~~~~
Plasterred smile
covers the fragile heart
all these while
we never did our part
to love
to cherish
to treasure
let me go if I am your burden
dont ever turn
Let me go if you fell out of love
i will fly like a dove
Let me
Just let me....
Years back, when we first met. We were so in love. After awhile, you realised that you are starting to fall out of love, but falling for someone else.
How do I know that all this while you are in love with me? Are those just sweet words that you utter to every single lady that you have ever met?
People around me say, I am the only stupid girl who can tolerate your attitude and behaviour. I guess I am idiotic enough to be played till the level where I am just being left to crash and burn after flying so highly in love with you.
You say, I am the only girl in your life that understands you the most. I guess all the understanding fade away too.
I've changed. Thats what you say. Let me see, I took care of you when you were sick. You called me at night saying that you have fever and cant eat anything but porridge, I left campus at night, with almost empty pockets. Rushed to your place to cater for your need. Well, those are just the memories that we cant dwell much, it will hurt more.
Maybe I am just another plot in your life. Another trophy to parade around. And now you have a new trophy, may that trophy serve you well.
Every single thing in our life, happens for a reason. Every single step that we take, are predetermined by power that is too complicated for us to comprehend. And the best part, what goes around, comes around.
The power of love
People says; "love is powerful, it will change you." How true is this? To me, its really true. People change to be better and all. But once the green monster takes over, one can really change to be better or worse.
So, what if you changed, negative?
Someone told me that I had changed to be the worst lover ever. I admit, I never really realised all the changes that took place. Maybe I was in my comfort zone, thinking that the way I love them is the true way of showing my love to them. I am a person who cant really show my love for them. Maybe I did it the wrong way. Confront me and tell me what you want, I will be your mirror and reflect everything that you want, just because I love you.
What if you've changed and they still dont cherish you?
Take the chance I guess. If I am changed to a better person, if that someone cant really cherish me, thinking that I cant give them everything that they want, maybe it was just meant to be that way. A friend of mine says, there are reasons that people from the past cant make it into your future. So, I guess its true. Everything happens for a reason, whatever reason that may be. If this happens to me to give me a wake up call. I guess I am awake, though half awake, still blinded by the love that I have for this person. Honestly, I dont have the strength to walk away, the strength to forget everything the strength to stay away.
But they have treated you so badly, isnt that a true wake up call?
It is a wake up call, but there is a malay saying, "bertepuk sebelah tangan tidak akan berbunyi." There are nothing that happened onesided. When we are pointing one finger toward others, remember that there are 3 fingers pointing back at you. Whatever that seems like fault of others, may caused by ourselves. I guess when shits happened, we humans would rather find something to point its at fault. Human nature I suppose.
What are you going to do if it doesnt work out?
I dont know. I really dont. Like I said, I dont have the strength to walk away, I dont have the strength to stay either. Commitment is a big responsibility for people with connection, especially when it felt like a burden for others. Relationship needs time, needs love, needs sacrifice.
So What if they dont want to sacrifice anymore?
This is a major problem. If changes is needed in a relationship, then changes will it be. If more sacrifice are needed to be done, sacrifice will it be. If changes wasnt cherished, i guess thats one of sacrifice that have already been made. Appreciation...
If you walk away, will you change to the worst?
Maybe not, maybe those changes will be the memoir for the relationship that we had, the time that we spent ( or wasted if that is how they look at it), memories we had together, all the ups and downs.
So, to change or not to change?
If changes is what I need to sacrifice to get you back. I will.
This is my two cents, maybe you need outsider view on this.
Well... I guess stuff can cool off when you talk things through.
Ah well, lets just say the 7 day cool period is kinda over...
Result;
herm..... lets just see in another few days...
People all around me has always thought that we are the happy couple around. With less conflict than they can imagine. On the inside, like any other couple, problems arise and settled making the relationship as strong as ever.
Commitment is a very big responsibility. Commitment makes you share the joy and tears. Commitment needs sacrifice. Would you sacrifice your love for someone who can cherish it? You will not know whether you are being cherished until conflict arise.
Happy couples don't mean they're all set for marriage. Troubled ones don't mean it won't work out. Sometimes being together for too long may cause boredom. Sometimes doing too many things together all the time might lose the spark. Sometimes distance DON'T make the heart grows fonder. Sometimes differences DO matter. Sometimes it isn't because of trust, it is because the feelings are just gone. (from Hot Chocolate)
Maybe thats why everyone need a break. 7 days... I only have 7 days... I know what I want in my heart, but I may not succeed if its for my own desire.
Lets just wait and see what will happen.
i just dont get it... after 2years............
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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