People says; "love is powerful, it will change you." How true is this? To me, its really true. People change to be better and all. But once the green monster takes over, one can really change to be better or worse.
So, what if you changed, negative?
Someone told me that I had changed to be the worst lover ever. I admit, I never really realised all the changes that took place. Maybe I was in my comfort zone, thinking that the way I love them is the true way of showing my love to them. I am a person who cant really show my love for them. Maybe I did it the wrong way. Confront me and tell me what you want, I will be your mirror and reflect everything that you want, just because I love you.
What if you've changed and they still dont cherish you?
Take the chance I guess. If I am changed to a better person, if that someone cant really cherish me, thinking that I cant give them everything that they want, maybe it was just meant to be that way. A friend of mine says, there are reasons that people from the past cant make it into your future. So, I guess its true. Everything happens for a reason, whatever reason that may be. If this happens to me to give me a wake up call. I guess I am awake, though half awake, still blinded by the love that I have for this person. Honestly, I dont have the strength to walk away, the strength to forget everything the strength to stay away.
But they have treated you so badly, isnt that a true wake up call?
It is a wake up call, but there is a malay saying, "bertepuk sebelah tangan tidak akan berbunyi." There are nothing that happened onesided. When we are pointing one finger toward others, remember that there are 3 fingers pointing back at you. Whatever that seems like fault of others, may caused by ourselves. I guess when shits happened, we humans would rather find something to point its at fault. Human nature I suppose.
What are you going to do if it doesnt work out?
I dont know. I really dont. Like I said, I dont have the strength to walk away, I dont have the strength to stay either. Commitment is a big responsibility for people with connection, especially when it felt like a burden for others. Relationship needs time, needs love, needs sacrifice.
So What if they dont want to sacrifice anymore?
This is a major problem. If changes is needed in a relationship, then changes will it be. If more sacrifice are needed to be done, sacrifice will it be. If changes wasnt cherished, i guess thats one of sacrifice that have already been made. Appreciation...
If you walk away, will you change to the worst?
Maybe not, maybe those changes will be the memoir for the relationship that we had, the time that we spent ( or wasted if that is how they look at it), memories we had together, all the ups and downs.
So, to change or not to change?
If changes is what I need to sacrifice to get you back. I will.