On the last Saturday, I went back to my kampong (village) in Lundu. A small district next to Bau. It took around two hours to reach there by land on an average speed of 100km/h.
I did nothing much in kampong. On Sunday, woke up at eight. I then had my breakfast. Around eleven I started to prepare lunch. But my parents only come back from our ‘kebun’ at around 12.30. I then went along to our kebun to pluck lada… not sure what is it called,. Pepper if I’m not mistaken. As soon as we went back from kebun, I jumped into the so called pool to relax. The water is freezing cold. It’s from the mountain anywhere. Felt feverish after the ‘swim’. My brother threw something at my face… I’m what was it, but it scratches my lovely face. It’s not that obvious but you can see it if you look closely.
My little cousin of mine is not very fond of me though. Last time when I was in kampong, he tried to shove my brother into the fish pond. I was so pissed that I just yank him up and say that I was going to toss him into the fish pond. He was scared of me ever since.
Around 6, went back to Kuching, reached Kuching around 8. Tiring journey…
Shadow of my life slithering over me I’m suffocating This is too much I got to be strong For the love of my life For the sake of my own verve I’m not going to let my shadow triumph the conquest I’m tough I can do this I won’t let my past take control of me My past is just a speck in my life I can’t pretend its not there But I can make use of that fragment To begin the journey of another
You can do that too Take a look of your life Make a change
It’s been a hard life for me And I’m feeling so damn low Have you ever been so low? Even when you’re on a high place And when all the people look down at you And when your entertainment tube is filled With images of sufferings and sadness And when you are actually have tears on your cheeks When you thought you are smiling I think this is the beginning of your fall The beginning of the end The fall from grace It gives you a new perspective on life And of course, death In time like this your life flashes in front of you they say... This is going to be a short show About the love you get About the love you give And about the love of your life On second thought Taking your own life won’t solve anything You’re just delaying your time to deal with it Life goes on... Even when you think that you have no life That’s life Have faith You will be salvaged