I woke up one day and realised that I can finally say I just woke up from the bad dream. Yes, I do still reminisce on the good days and all the memories of what we had been through. I dont regret all the good times. How I wish I can say that I dont regret the bad times but it is part of the good times too.
I realised that I've been lied to a lot, but then, I realised that you do, do not did, that to everyone too. I can list down all the lies that you told everyone, but it doesnt do me any good, and neither to you. I thought I was special, but those are just words uttered from your sweet little pie hole. So, why should I be so upset about it, right? (Trying hard to console myself over all the lies)
I've been begging for a second chance to be with you, but I do no good for you. Then I realised, I should really give myself a second chance in life, with of without you. I should decide to go back or not at all. I want to disappear but I've been doing that to everyone who had been in my life before. I want to change that, starting with you.
Jac, how I wish you read this too.. And you'll go all blonde and tell me to not dwell in it and dont get myself hurt again. Thanks for entertaining my midnight calls and sms, consoling me and being there for me.
Fiz, thanks for letting Jac entertain my emotional cries and letting me 'cook' at your lovely home.
Lysa Lang, you... you're my blonde sistah too... you should meet Jac!! Thanks for being my shrink. Too bad we didnt meet up during my last days in KL. But if I visit you, I will stay a night or two at ur vacant room and scare your housemate with the lack of clothes too... haha... Just make sure ur bonyo closes her eye... :P Too much free show, no good. p/s: The season is almost over, I have pairs who are standing strong through this 'monsoon' season.
Mimi, I know mimi doesnt read this but she too, helped me a lot during the hard times.. mimi, u pierced ur nose ady, and i still owe you one piercing! will post it up when i get it done!!
not forgetting Kairy!! Kairy has been there for me for I dont know how long, entertaining my blonde joke and my cries of pain late at night or better yet, early in the morning. distance and time wont let this friendship drift to nothingness.. At least I hope so..
And you, Thanks for the lesson of life. I learnt more and more just by being with and without you. I've to learnt it the hard way, yes. But thanks. I guess someone like me just had to learn it the hard way huh...
clap clap.im always there 4u darl.lolx.but i went bek last nite stil hunting for the lg ph0ne.u wrote me a love leta.~giggles~see u anywhere on cyber world or phone world n c0me bek to kl when u want to.loads to go crazy wit u.