I am trying to put my emotions ( anger, sadness, joy and everything that you can think of) in words. Solid words with strong meaning. The way I am being treated today (well, part of it) is Un-Acceptable for me.
If I want to make a hooh-hah with this "thing" I'm facing, I am so going to win, BIG time. I am serious, But still, what am I thinking of.. I am just SOME employee in SOME place. Well, it wasn't just some place for me before this until some shit happens to me. What shit you may say, herm.... back stabbed? Checked. Hurt? Checked. Back stabbed? check. Yeah. I got back stabbed one too many times. I may sounds like I am twisting someone's word, believe me, its not. Its my way of procrastinating this situation.
I really really like the quote, "Treat others as you want others to treat you." Somebody backfired me by saying, what I want from others might not be the same as what others want from me. Lets make it simple for some noobs in life ( I am not a GURU or something but common sense is still in check), do you want me to respect you? Do you want to have a mutual understanding? Give and take you will say. Sayang, that is treat others as you want to be treated. People give, you take. You give, people take la. Or, you would rather a situation like er, You give, I take joyfully. You need a favor? Go f#%k yourself. Do you prefer like that? Well, if you do, tell me straight to my face. I will give you a special treatment of those.
Oh yeah, and one more, "what goes around comes back around".. No, its not the Justin Timberlake song with Scarlett Johansson in it. That's not it. Someone told me before that the quote is very famous in Buddha teaching. To think about it, its really true right? You treat me like shite, someday someone will treat you like shite. That's the only thing that is keeping me strong right now. The thought of you kena the same thing like what you did to me, thats satisfy me. Sounds like a sick fetish right?
Sigh. I really want to let out everything but I have to filter some PNC information. Scared of the fact that I am going to be sued or something. Or worst. Sigh Sigh Sigh...
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Lets talk bout something happy. I've had enough of the sarcasm and bullshites today ( only for today, tomorrow is another day to be procrastinated.)
My dad bought me a ring. Yes a ring to tie me down. At least that is what my mom says. I dont get the meaning yet.. But herm.... its nice right? with the bling. Okay, to be frank. I am not a ring person. So not. I am more to a necklace and bracelet person. I am a very clumsy. So, with a ring, I feel like my movement is being limited to just a few things. I don't know. Maybe I am just so not to used to it.
Single ladies,put a ring on it. I am not single but I am definitely going to keep this ring. Hey.. My dad bought it for me 'kay. I've lost the pendant that my mom bought for me when I entered my college. I am scared to tell her thought, I love that thing very much. I ,lost it during one of the hectic night outs that I've had. Yeah.. Kinda regret it
Soon, I will tell you more on all those quotes that keeps me alive till the day that I die.