There is this one malay idiom that I am not sure of the existence. It involves the word 'pelanduk'. I think its ' ibarat pelanduk yang tidak melupakan jerat' or is it? all i know is, it means, you tend to forget the thngs that you've done to your vic but the vic wont ever forget bout it. erm... Betul ke ni?

run.. run away like you always do. and you're doing really good there. haih... immatures. come a problem, then run. create a trouble here. then run. fuck a girl here, then bag there. ow shane.. that is so you. only you know what i mean here. good luck running cos u need a lot of that.

i have a lot in my plate now.. i seriously do.. haih.. past is catching up. Truths are revealing themselves. victim vitimizing the vic. yeap. its complicated but hell~~

Liars will never accept or face the truth.
liars will never move on.
liars will remember all the lies.
liars will regret their lies soon.
liars will never stop lying as liar thinks that life is a lie.
liars will treat everything as a lie


victim = learn the bitter truth
victim = realise that fact of being victimise
victim = move on and get on with life
victim = will realise and remember all the lies
victim = will never fall for the same liar

I need a time out. I dont like the way u treated me. ur just the same with everyone that i know. damn it.

i dont even know why i trusted all ur sweet talks before this. damn it girl. dont do that to me. i am broken, i dont need you to break me.

im not into good mood now. its because of my hair. thats it. jo! lets go drink if ur in KL when ur reading this. *sigh*

Long time no diary post.. Its been hell of months here in a new place. i've been trying to adapt. trying to find new friends. im loud.. but i will get extremely quiet when i m around new people. haha.. but my friends, i mean the friends that i knew way back before i get to Um has been really great to me. L, Z, and hell lots more are helping thru shits that ive gone thru. A good listener ha~.

Lately, i feel really lonely. i really dont know why. as in, i feel like i need someone to listen to my rants, be there when i need someone, talk to me, pampers me, and stuff. i mean doing what a lovers do i guess. but im not ready for any love life.. im not ready for ay commitment. but yeah, i need that someone.

someone to hold my hands when im alone, someone to wipe away my tears, someone to hold me, to hug me when im shuddering in fear, someone to love me, loving me for who i am. sigh.. sounds like i need a lover or sumthing. lols

so, who wants to be my part time lover? cos i dont love, i want to be loved. haha.. not fair is it? thats why my pendant has all the 'retard' heart shape. talking bout heart shape, i saw a heart shape necklace with nice messages on the pendant in VINCCI when i was accompanying Zuey buying her pumps. *love your red pumps Zuey* damn... its nice but i didnt get it. cos i got hell lots of necklace in this 2 months. but i really love it... anyone wanna get it for me? please? i really love it. really really do...

ow yeah.. today i went out with Zuey to Bukit Bintang. We just went around BB and buy lotsa stuff, AGAIN. there is this Corset like thing that i saw in one of the shop. its so damn nice. but again. Im BROKE. so i kiss the corset goodbye. tsk tsk.. its really sad. what did i saw again just now that i want?? hm.. yeah.. its the top that Zuey bought. its black and white stripe-y shirt. damn nice Zuey!! haha.. later we tukar tukar macam biasa ar.. ahaks

Zuey bought lucky clover chain to put on her jeans. its nice.. hihihihih.. and im jealous of that. but one thing we both were amazed was, we were able to walk in pairs of uncomfortable shoes (but cute) for what, 3 hours, non stop. haish.. special ability i guess.

ow yeah zuey... today, i dont sesat. as in i went on the right train. hihihihi.. shhhhhhh.. kita jak tau tuh.. L tau juga la. terus kena cop lousy. ahaks..

Guess what, last night i went out with someone. it was great. *thinking of more words* o yea! it was GRRRREEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!